haha...this is my 10 year old bro. fat and adorable. notice i dont use e word but. haha...he's got potential for a 6 pack. BUT right now, he's got a belly. he used to be skinny. which is good i guess, until we stopped swimming lessons and he simply expanded. haha...but. he so damn cute. moobs, which are what we( my sis n i ) call man boobs, look so adorable on him.

haha...this pic was e best i could get when i was teaching him maths during e hols. cause he refused to get shot. by me. ha. he's got such nice skin. which makes me wonder what my mother ate when she was pregnant with me. he also has fleshy buttocks to go with his belly. haha...i sound bad. but when he refused to wear undies in e past, we would pull his pants down when he was standing in e car. lol. and expose his cute cute buttocks.

haha...but because he didnt get used to indecent exposure, he finally decided to put on some undies. nah, that's not true. sth else happened that actually convicted him to weat undies=)




i was looking thru my old photos and i found some pics..





okay. this is how i look like now. with my super hot hair. haha...with zhen. ex colleague at fish&co. she's pretty. im prettier. lol.

emotionally and physically stretched.

some people just drain your strength whenever you're with them. u feel like they will just suck everything u have. it's simply tiring to even sit beside them and hear them talk.

not everyone is e same i know, but things dont have to be this extreme.

first thing i wonder when i woke up today is, how do i go on from here?

i dont want to go back to who i used to be. that is e old me. i am a new creation in christ jesus. i dont want to lay the foundations again and again.

life still goes on. i will have to move on. hey, im not doing this to prove anything to anyone, but because i have already made the decision not to live for myself, but e one who made me.

i wont turn back.
i wont even look back.

THE JOY OF THE LORD IS MY STRENGTH!

seriously, ever since school started, i didnt get my 11 hours of beauty sleep.

aiya...i think i can forget about it. cause e workload is coming!!!!

eee...i dont like FPQAP. 100% problem based learning. maybe im just too used to being spoonfed by e lecturers. i've yet to take a pic of madam kalpana. eh eh!!! she's one cool lecturer. e second teacher to interest me in a subject for e whole 18 years of my jumbu life.

haha...dont ask. cause i dont know what jumbu is either. it just sounds kuku. so i used it.

I CANT WAIT TO GET MY NEW PHONE!

cause e one im using is kuku. not that im complaining or what, but it's incredibly difficult to enjoy cam-whoring with a VGA camera.

yikes! i've got a moustache above my lips. didnt know im so hairy. i hope this sem got grooming course. cause i hate e moustache.

im tired. been sleeping whenever i can. not good not good.

im waiting...waiting for my breakthru and my confirmation to come. they're on their way!

bananas and watermelons make a good combo!

HM...i pray that i wont forget what i prayed today.

to be able to make that difference in a person's life doesnt take much. all it requires is e willingness. to be willing means to lay aside one's personal agenda and stand in e gap just for him.

it's an investment, cause there are risks involved. but i'd rather take that risk than look back 5 years later and realise that i've achieved nothing when i was in tp.

just how much of a difference can one make? im not rich, neither am i super eloquent. but im willing to lay aside what i have in exchange for something i know that money can never buy.

i want that anointing.

bought a new bag yesterday! actually, i just like the pvc. there's another bag i wannt buy. and i spent another 20 bucks on an esprit belt. bargain okay! i love it. cause it's gold!!!

wholahay ppl!!!! i have no idea what that is. but it sounds so wholahay. haha...

goodness. i have yet to pack my bag. and school's starting in 8 hours. hai...

i'm looking for my lip balm. dry lips. eeky.

hey gorgeous! is starting in 3 minutes. EEK!

im still looking for my lip balm. where art thou?

went back to PL with lao zhang. not primary though. it's e sec school PL fair. quite sian la. food food and food. haha...but at least i got to spend time with her =)

FINALLY a pic of me and lao zhang. haha....eek! we've got short legs. just slaughter me...

haha...notice how my feet appears to be at joanne's mouth in this pic? wahaha...

this was taken at seoul garden. seriously, e food wasnt very nice. hai...dunno why we went there. aiya...but not bad la, at least got do some bonding. lol.

OMG OMG!!!! i just found out my friend's on hey gorgeous! so gonna watch e repeat telecast later!

today's e start of e new semester!!! woo wee!!!!

hai...but e bad thing is...i forgot my cam! how to cam whore?! haha...im so excited about e new term.

miss quek miss mah miss chan pregnant! okay, old news. e only difference is that their stomachs got bigger la! i so wanna take pics of e 3 of them together!

went sentosa ytd. FULL BODY ACHE TODAY. got a halfway there tan. haha...used ELEMENTE facial sunscreen. couldnt get any colour on my face. sia la. im not gonna use it again. because it's so good that i cant get a tan on my beautiful face!

woke up damn early today sia. raining early in e morn. raining now. woo!!! must i emphasize how much i love rainy days?! i wanna walk in e rain! im gonna do that some day man...

hai...there's lab tmr. hope it ends early. cause im gonna get my new duffle bag!!! i dunno how to spell la. but it looks so damn cool on me can! haha...

i'm grateful for the blessings that have been poured into my life.

whether it's rain or shine, You're still e same.

you saw e ugliest side of me, and the best that i can be.

yet your love for me never changes.

who am i, to receive such tender mercy?

you cried with me when i cried my heart out. you laughed with me when i laughed till my tummy hurts.

so many times, i wondered why you kept quiet when i come running to you like a little child, crying because i fell, got scratched, and needed a little attention. like a big kid, i'd sit there and cry, with my box of kleenex. i would talk till i couldnt go on anymore. many times you cried with me. it hurts you more to see me beating myself up cause i didnt get this right, made that person angry, say the wrong word and wished i could take it all back, and make a big mess out of everything.

heck, im imperfect. but i dont wanna struggle with being imperfect anymore. cause i just cant be perfect. so why not just learn to walk instead of running in so many directions?

i dont wanna walk and find myself come to a crossroad in my life and wonder what the hell have i been doing all these years?

heck, i dont yearn for the approval of man anymore. i've already been approved by you.

take out the dirt; remove the impurities.

all of me for all of you.

abba abba abba...THANK YOU.

just finished watching survivor china. woots! great abs!

came back from ikea w keng n joa. hai...another day has passed. longgg day ahead.

deja vu! so many the past few days...hm.

being very random, but im coming to e zhong4 dian3.

been walking w God for 2 years plus. and even as i was watching survivor, i was

thinking to myself, can only the strong survive?

not in terms of physical strength, but other aspects as well.

hm, 2 years back, what would i be doing if i go through what im going through now?
seriously, i dont know. but 2 years down e road, if im still lost and not yet found, no doubt i'll still be struggling with so many issues.

2 years ago, there were so many who came with me. many came and many fell. some came back and some fell away. it's sad, but we're all given e freedom to choose how we wanna live our lives.

who is still standing strong today after all these years?

LOVE RAINY DAYS!

EVER WONDER WHY SOME PEOPLE SEEM LIKE THEY'RE IN THEIR COMFORT ZONE ALL E TIME???

CAUSE THEY REFUSE TO STEP OUT OF THEIR COMFORT ZONE!!!

IT'S ALWAYS SO NICE TO STAY INSIDE OUR COMFORT ZONES. NO WONDER WE DONT SEE MUCH CHANGES IN OUR LIVES. POINT IS, IF WE WANNA BE SUCCESSFUL, THEN WE GOTTA STEP OUT. AND MAKE A DIFFERENCE! NO DOUBT WE'LL BE TIRED!

BUT PPL WHO CHANGE E WORLD ARE TIRED PPL!!!

WHY? CAUSE THEY'RE ALWAYS DOING THINGS NORMAL PPL DUN DO. THAT IS, MOVING BEYOND THEIR COMFORT ZONES ALL E TIME.

ENTREPRENEURS, BUSINESSMEN, PROFESSIONALS, ...

THEY ARE WHERE THEY ARE BECAUSE OF HARD WORK.

IF WE ARE AFRAID OF HARD WORK, WE WONT GET ANYWHERE IN LIFE.

CAUSE WORKING RELEASES E GLORY IN US.

SOME PPL SAY THAT MAN HAS TO WORK SO HARD BECAUSE OF THE FALL.

SAYS WHO? WE HAVE TO WORK, BUT IT IS WITH A STRUGGLE THAT WE WILL SCRATCH A LIVING FROM IT.

EVEN E GOD OF ALL UNIVERSE WORKED SO HARD THAT HE HAD TO REST ON E LAST DAY, HOW MUCH HARDER DO WE HAVE TO WORK FOR OUR STUDIES, OUR DREAMS, OUR DESIRES, OUR GOALS?

EEW. I CANT BELIEVE IT.

NEW TIMETABLE...

STARTS AT 8 IN E MORN!!!! OH MAN...

I NEED MY BEAUTY SLEEP...

I'LL HAVE TO WAKE UP AT 545AM, BATHE EAT DILLY DALLY TILL 630AM. REACH BUS STOP AT 645AM.

THEN FINALLY REACH SCHOOL AT 8AM.

BUT MORNING MIGHT NOT BE THAT RUSHED.

HAI...BEAUTY SLEEP...DEPRIVED THEN WILL GET DARK EYE RINGS.

UNLESS IM FILTHY RICH. THEN EVERY DAY CAN APPLY EYE MASK.

SIGH SIGH SIGH.

IT COULD BE A TYPO ERROR.

IF IT'S NOT, THEN ALSO GOOD.

NEW CLASS, NEW PPL TO REACH OUT TO. AWESOME!

Dont despise me just because i am young.

what i have now, you do not have. what you have now, i will have more even though i do not have them now.

though i cant see it now, i will have it somehow.

i may not be a millionaire now, but i will be one before i hit 30. just wait and see.

i already know the amount that i want to give.

but how much does God wants me to give??

i dont wanna give too much. neither do i want to give too little.

how much is enough to God?
how much is too much in God's eyes?
how much is not much to You?

just how much do i love Him to give what is much to Him?
what is not much to me is not much to Him.
but what is much to me is also much to Him.

i dont wanna withold. cause i know that what i have is not mine to begin with.
what i need and dont have will be added to me one day.
what i have lost, You will repay me with more.
but i dont wanna shortchange You.

Cgm was good yesterday. as i prepared for the offering, i remembered what someone said.

to never let an offering bucket pass her by. even if what is left in her purse is meant for lunch or dinner, she would still give.

it really convicted me a lot. just like what king david said in 2 samuel 24: 24:
"i will not sacrifice to the LORD my God burnt offerings that cost me nothing."

really, david could have any land he wanted given the fact that he was a king. but he insisted that he will buy the threshing floor that araunah offered to give him. and then the LORD answered prayer in behalf of the land, and the plague on Israel was stopped.

all i had in my wallet was 2 bucks. now, that is not a lot for an adult.
just enough to buy a mac chicken. just nice for 6 packs of tissue. just nice for a bowl of dessert.
but it's enough to fill my stomach.
as i gave, i teared. just as the offering has touched my heart, it will touch God's.

unequal amount, equal sacrifices.

while we sat and worshipped, i was thinking if i had lost the passion to serve.
definitely, serving God requires time, effort and money.
week after week, the same people, the same problem. i told God, that the others helping out in the cell are more qualified than i am. what can i do?

but God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong.

i am weak but he is strong.

But he said to me, ''My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in your weakness."

for when i am weak then i am strong.

Friends.

are important to me.

other than my family, im with my friends most of e time.

i love to be with ppl=)

if im w a crowd and im super quiet, u'll know sth is amiss. cause i talk a lot.
sometimes, i keep quiet cause i wanna observe. but other than that, i talk. a lot.
yakkaty yakkaty yak.

of course there are times when i need to be alone. and i would much rather walk home from the inter for 15 mins so i can think on my own. i dun care if it's dark or if im tired. if i need to be alone, i'll do it manz!!!

1 year in tp, i've made many friends.
friends from church, from school, from workplace, from ...
and e list goes on.

but seriously, how many would be there when i really need them?

who would be there??? haha...starting to name names.

yeah serene, u're right. haha...i hate to admit it, but u're damn right.

please, dun make promises if u cant fulfil them. cause we aint gonna cling to them like u think we would. cause we are no longer in sec school ya.

woo!!!!

new blog!!!! absolutely love e skiN!!! and ELVIS PERSLEY!!!!

wahaha...been on hols for 6 weeks.

6 weeks of labour or 6 weeks of slacking???

been doing so much...believe it's gonna pay off someday.

because my God is faithful!!!

i'm tired man...see the same ppl every week; do the same things every week; what else is new yeah...

i need to renew my mind...my breakthrough will come!!!!