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Wednesday, April 22, 2009,
4:28:00 PM
was supposed to go cycling today, but it was scorching outside.. so i thought i'd stay at home and chill instead so my weak and frail body wont dehydrate again. work was okay, and since we always work half days on weds, it's nice to come home and just chill in front of the computer and have ur instant noodles and hokkaido ice cream for company. i had the privilege of applying urine bags and inserting medicine into the anus of infants and toddlers these past 3 weeks of probation at work. it was kinda unnerving at first, having to clean their you-know-where to collect their urine cause they are not toilet trained. and the first attempt at inserting the fever medicine into the anus was not exactly pleasant. the kid was crying the whole time i was tryingto get the pill in. but i guess i'll be good with these hands-on stuff when i become a mom. hahaha. most of the kids who come have really rich parents. dressed in burberry and stuff... the indonesians come just to see the specialists. they are especially rich!!! after a day at work, u just wanna come home and enjoy a nice family dinner. i used to go out every day and sometimes miss dinner with these peeps. but strangely, i feel really weird if i have to spend my dinners outside, even with my closest friends. u start to appreciate the time that u get to spend with ur family, and even their mere presence can be really comforting. it's just weird for me to feel like that... really weird! never been the dependent sort... but i guess im still in the period of transition. our family bought a new 7 seater!! HAHA. i promise myself that the next time i get to study, i will really give it my best shot. damn... you dont always have it easy you know. of course, u learn to be more responsible and make important decisions. so i have decided. that im gonna further my studies in no less than 5 years. any longer and my the days of my youth will be over in the blink of an eye. woo!!! i love being a student! ya... and i was thinking if i marry early, i might be a stay at home mom!!! provided the man earns a lot!!! u just gotta extra devote time and effort to raise up kids who will not be starved for love when they grow up. working and raising a family at the same time is tiring!!! dinner's waiting!!
Tuesday, April 14, 2009,
4:31:00 PM
had a really good and long weekend cause of easter. speaking of easter... the drama was great! im blogging now cause im on mc today!! woo!! the fever was totally gone ytd, but i think i can use today to make up for lost time. so even as im sipping my soup, eating my mee hoon kuay, im waiting for the last two episodes of boys over flowers to load, logging onto facebook, doing online shopping and stuff. ah.. the wonders of multi-tasking. within the first month of my new job, ive been on mc for 4 days cause of fever. haha... i really wonder what my colleagues think of me. maybe i dont smile so much nowadays, but that doesnt mean im unfriendly. hey.. like why was the chicken rice stall auntie staring at me??? i would have liked to smile at her, but i dont smile to strangers when im alone. especially when im not wearing my glasses. which is like half the time. it leaves me insecure knowing that im smiling at someone i cant see clearly. which was why it caused a misunderstanding with my colleagues at a bus stop on my way to work last fri. oh well... i might get new contact lenses when my pay comes. and i bought a new dress for the grad ceremony!! im darn excited cause i think it's gonna be a blast! im so looking forward to it and i really really hope the rest are coming too! but im not really sure if the dress i bought is suitable for the occasion though. ive decided to keep my hair at shoulder length. haha... cause i think i look good with that kind of hair length. i might get a new hair colour next month!! i was watching a tv program on Rain on discovery channel in the morning. i think it's really amazing that different personalities can be driven to succeed because of certain things that happened in their life. this korean singer/actor has achieved so much in his twenties that people his age can only dream of. he has come to where he is because he was driven and hardworking. after watching this, i feel that anyone can succeed in life if he really has a good attitude and acts when the opportunity come. u dont need to have God to achieve fame and wealth. the bible says the rain of God falls on the righteous and unrighteous. what is it like to be really rich and famous yet live without God is sth i see in the lives of so many celebrities and famous personalities. but to be able to walk with Jesus in a time like this, is a choice many people have made, and one many have decided to live without. what would it take for those who have made a conscious decision not to walk with Jesus to give Him a chance? how much would it cost you to give it a try? all these in exchange for a saviour who gave his all on that cross so that we may be reconciled to the Father. and you ask what good does it do to you? and i say unless u experience firsthand the unfailing love and acceptance lavished on you while you have made so many mistakes, caused much unhappiness and sometimes feel like you are not even worth as much at dog poo at all, you wouldnt know what it's like when Jesus tells you that ''yes, i have loved you with an everlasting love.'' ''but he was wounded and crushed for our sins. he was beaten that we might have peace. and by his stripes we are healed.''
Wednesday, April 8, 2009,
5:45:00 PM
second thoughts
 had a fantastic day today. went out w e poly peeps after work. i felt alive! and while we were at recruit express, a company which i had sent my resume to called. only after i had taken up this job offer!! the boss of the company sounded friendly okay! damn! in my heart i was like thinking, is it my loss for saying yes in haste? haiya... quite heart broken. worse than breaking up with ur first love. at least first love never lose anything. but still.. im so looking forward to the grad ceremony on 21st may!! the feeling of meeting ur poly mates again, it's gonna be like, how everyone has grown in 3 months!!! all the emotions, yelling, shrieking and photo taking. okay.. maybe i cant expect significant changes frm everyone, but it's like meeting everyone all over again! who knows when we'll meet again after grad. 5 years down the road? some would have been lawyers, doctors, professors... or even married! i want to be one of those who get married first okay! cause at the very least, if i cant get my ideal job, i can say im happily married alr! okay.. enough rubbish. i had absolutely no idea my neighbour came back from england like about ten mins ago. she gave us chocolates! not those u find in ntuc or cold storage... haha. e finest! simply melt in ur mouth! Labels: married, married and married. chocolates too
Tuesday, April 7, 2009,
1:24:00 PM
i cant wait for the grad ceremony!!! oh, month of may! come quickly!
12:35:00 PM
work at the hospital has been good so far. i really hope i can recover fully by tmr so i can absorb more at work. cause being on mc these couple of days has given me ample rest! the environment is not bad, but i cant imagine myself working at the same place for 2 years. of course, the faster i learn all the basic stuff, the sooner i get to help out at the cardiac department. i still think studying is way better. life is getting kinda mundane once u start work. day in day out, it's the same thing. therefore, i tell myself that once i have enough money to further my studies, i'll do it! i can never settle for a diploma. come to think of it, im really fortunate cause ive started working. this may not be what i really want to do, neither does it suit my personality, because i am definitely not a meticulous person. but i can look at it this way. whatever that i am lacking in right now, this job can train me in terms of being meticulous and precise. at the end of the day, i got to know what i want in life. the bible says to never despise small beginnings. |