today, i saw the other side of the mask that we so often hide to protect ourselves.
not from me, but someone i got to really know during these few weeks.

behind all that facade is someone who needs to be reassured constantly of his worth in this world.

beyond all that teasing and making fun of others, i saw someone who did it to make himself feel better.

maybe because he doesnt feel good abt himself, maybe because of inadequacy, maybe because he hasnt been showered w encouragement & assurance while growing up.

come to think of it, many ppl are like that. yeah, me too.

that's why we like to hide behind that mask.

but what if we are willing to put that away and just be who we are??

yeah. that'd be much better.

though we'd still be vulnerable to hurts blah blah blah.

hm. at least we dont tire ourselves every day trying to be someone we are not. just to be accepted.

which leads me to think. that my life would be better if i know what im living for.

when we know who we are, our sense of identity, our self-worth, then life wouldnt be that hard.

at least i know who i am. at least i know my value.

then what other ppl say wont affect me cause i know where im going and what i wanna do.

omg. im supposed to be doing my logbook. argh. i have a craving for mee sua now. i think i'll get some tmr.